i am not that kind of person. but yeah, sometimes.
there's no wrong to being bit cheesy.
be more honest, speech out what exactly of the feeling you was experiencing.
i did miss my secondary school's life.
though we fought, insulted each other, gossiped for any random stuff.
i was once hate it, i wished like hell to escape that place,
cos' i feels like i was not belongs to that place, i was like an outsider.
but now, i feel more like an outsider.
tolerance, i was trying so hard to but never mind
i have started to get used to it.
having lunch alone, walking back to my dorm all alone and sitting alone in the class.
maybe this isn't a problem for me anymore.
i was mean to be alone, and apparently i don't care bout it anymore.
i can survive without the companion of others, i can be alone and be more independent.
i love to stay alone doesn't mean em loser or weirdo.
cos' i rather stay alone, but not to being ignore.
so why not, i choose a so-called best way to go on.
i don't really might being alone, but i hate being ignore.
i was totally exhausted of your ignorance, technically i have no feeling towards you anymore.
i was frustrated and em not going to change myself to entertain you
if i did it, em not longer me myself anymore,
just tell me, if i can still survive in this kind of environment without becoming a slut or bitch.
i don't want to be like them.
you can't persuade me of owing that disgusting behavior like you,
i dare to say by absolute em not a greedy person,
what i want was a, friend. or a bud?
how come it never exist?
it's hard to get close with peoples especially difference gender for me,
for them i probably a very unfriendly person,
i treated them so cool or just a manners' grinned even they talked to me.
i choose to stay silence when they are having a conversation, smiling all the time.
basically i won't show up my real personality with strangers especially with guys,
not because em trying to build up a good image,
instead i always grow some hatred or you can say uncomfortable while talking with them,
sometimes even very resists, lol.
em don't know i'll be acting like a nerd, or a shy bab girl.
i do likes cool guys but i couldn't survive calmly talking with them.
i can't treat them like girls, so pretty envy on why other girls can doing so well with boys.
can't break the wall had build up between so long-long time ago.
itai, who caused this happens to me? LOL
LE RANDOM FACT OF MINE
*sometimes my mind got mixed with Japanese, English and Chinese etc,
i can actually remember a Japanese sentence and i know the definition.
and ridiculously i cannot remember how to say it in Chinese and English == *
Sasha.
one week one post,
easier then eating mash potatoes.
^ not make sense at all, jerk.
are u a fool Sasha. damn
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