I have so much feeling today.
I was feeling embarrassing and irratating.
I woke up a bit late with out my expectation this morning,
My alarm was not working for no reason.
By quickly, I get ready myself and done my simple breakfast with the American styled breakfast - crispy cornflakes, partly rotten banana and freshly milk.
Went to the class earlier today and was sitting all alone as usual, spaced up for whole morning, scrolling up and down in my Facebook, Instagram and Twitter pointlessly.
Finally lunchtime, was expecting to grab sandwich or toast cos i had spend too much on buying random necessary grocery.
Lol and my plan was ruined cos I served myself a quality meal. Damn delicious food always tickling my heart, attacked me while I was having low defencing, get lost immediately and forgotten my saving plan, ordered some nice food to heal myself.
I was showing an entirely different facial expression and what was i exactly thinking for the whole day.
For no reason, I wasn't doing good since I woke up this morning, and was getting worst when I saw him.
I have no idea why a simple action of him would messed me up.
Why did I stared on the screen for 3 seconds and pretend like I doesn't care scrolled it away.
I could actually felt something bursted inside of me like a dynamic.
I knew it always there, but I just don't know when is it going to explosive.
When should I going to accept the fact that I'm actually still cares of him. After so long, I thought I was able to let go of him, but I was wrong. His warmed and attracted grinned was still making me blushed.
Did you actually placed a spell on me? Driving me so insane, unable to let you get out my mind.
I knew, we will never ever have that chance, I knew so well just we have been acknowledged that human can't live without oxygen. Nobody taught that to us, we owned that knowledge automatically.
I can't defeated you. I'm feeling so distressing, how come you have the abilities to torture me even you're not by my side.
Bad things would just stick around when it sensed you were down.
My laptop seems broke, processor ain't not working well, home screen pop up lousily without obeying my instruction, was damn mad and screaming on it, in the matter fact I was trying to smash it into pieces.
Ahh what an unlucky day with this messy entries.
I hope you can understand what am I writing about.
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